Close to seven months I lost my dear Baba....he died without suffering too much in his beloved country, Iran. His death was a shock to me and for many days I found myself in a daze..I thought of all the things I wished I had experienced with him...I wished I had visited him more often,....and many more I wishes...I remember the minute I heard that he had left this earthly plain I felt my back was broken...suddenly a pillar that had held my being from the  beginning till now had suddenly collapsed. ...this was unbearable...I had witnessed many losses and had grieved and mourned for others...but, this was different...being a person who believes in the Spirit World, I knew he was at peace...but I, could not find my peace...talking with many friends who had experienced the same loss, I found a comfort...it was like now I understood what it was like to lose a parent...a loss we all have to contend with some day....Thru many talks and cries a friend told me to establish a relationship with my father that is in the spiritual plane not earthly one...I had known him for all my life as a physical being....now, being a believer, I needed to transform the relationship to a spiritual one....So, started my new journey...I would talk with him...I would tell him about my day, my feelings, and thoughts...thru meditation and prayer I would connect with my higher self .at the beginning it was a bit strange...but then slowly something magical happened...the grieving that was tearing me apart transformed into a peace...I felt him within and around me...a feeling that I can not truely explain... my heart filled with a serene love that was filled with joy..I never felt closer to my father....I shared this with many who had similar experiences...it was truely a gift to me....

Today, I still feel a little wobbly in the house that my soul resides in...one pillar as I knew is gone...however....there is a comfort knowing I can speak to him at anytime...so,....I am still learning and growing...I see my Baba in my face...but more importantly I see my Baba in my heart....